So SAD!!! BUT Happy

    Today I spend the day with Kevin. He moved from Ft. Wayne to Muncie with his girlfriend. They moved to cute house. They are definitely a cute couple. They work well with each other. I realized today that he is a grown man. No matter what you think you want all you want is for your children to grow up and be successful. My sons all them are successful.

Bro. "Dad" Massela

i went to a funeral for a great man today. I loved this man and I know he loved me and my family. Brother Massela, I have known him since I was about 13 years old. He and Louise (Sis. Massela) and their 8 children moved to our ward. Bro Massela was a tall and big man. As I got older I realized that he wasn't necessary build big but his spirit was big. The Massela's were my first and only babysitter for Jason. Oh, how Sis Massela loved Jason. Matter of fact Jason took his first steps at their house. Every time Bro. Massela saw me he would say "Mom how are you, then how is our Jason" So needless to say I called him "Dad" because he always referred to me as "Mom"
Brother Massela's obituary
Ambroise Tshibuka Massela Born September 27, 1936 in Mbuji Mayi, Democratic Republic of the Congo to Tshiala Joseph and Mujinga Celine, Ambroise came to the United States in 1963 with his wife and infant twin daughters. While raising and growing their family, Ambroise earned a Bachelor's Degree in Mathematics and a Master's Degree in Computer Science from Indiana University in Bloomington, IN. Ambroise retired from the Indiana State Board of Health - Indianapolis, Indiana as a Senior Computer Systems Analyst in 2007. He was also a founding member of Leja Bulela, a not-for-profit organization dedicated to enhancing the quality of life for those in his native Congo. Ambroise is survived by his wife of 49 years, Louise Massela, and their children: Mujinga Rose, Ntumba MaryAnn (Tellas), Tshiala Joseph, Mbayi Pierre, Kankolongu Susan, Kalenga Tshombe, and Bindila Ana, son-in-law Andrew Tellas, and daughter-in law Jacqueline Jai Massela. Ambroise and Louise have 4 grandchildren, Xavier, Tendela, Kaleu, and Solomon. Ambroise was preceded in death by his daughter, Mala Agnes and his son, Kasonga. Viewing will be held Thursday January 27, 2011, from 4 to 8 p.m. in Flanner and Buchanan Funeral Center-Washington Park North, 2706 Kessler Blvd West Drive, Indianapolis, IN. Funeral service will be held with viewing from 9:30 to 10:30 a.m., Friday January 28, 2011 with service beginning at 11am at The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, 10710 Shelbourne Rd, Carmel, IN 46032. Burial will be held at Washington Park Cemetery North, 2702 Kessler Boulevard West Drive, Indianapolis, IN 46228 immediately following the funeral service. Relatives and friends are welcome to attend viewing, service and burial.      

The funeral was beautiful Each of the children got up and talked about their Father. What an honor. If my children say half of the things they said about Bro. Massela I will be truly blessed. What a great reunion going on in heaven right now. Aggie has been waiting along time for this!!

Amani

   Amani is the drug and alcohol center where I was an intern for spring 2010 and then come summer they hired me and I worked there 1 day a week. This job was my sanity. I love it. I love the clients and the work we do. I have learned so much from them. Wednesday last week they had to let me go. I felt saddenness, I really loved the job and it helped so much. It was a huge part me of me deciding to go part time at the hospital. I could make the extra day up at the center so now I do not have that income. I know when I prayed I felt good about the decision. So with everything there is a blessing. So I know with every time I have listened to my Father in Heaven it is always the best for me. So even with this I know that. But I am sad. I have decided to stay on and help with groups as volunteer work.

I saw God today

Am I able to see the God's hand in everything? Or is it something I just read about? 

 i was listening to country music and George Strait has this song called "I saw God today" the chorus goes like this:

I've been to church
I've read the book
I know He's here, but I don't look
near as often as I should
Yeah, I know I should
His fingerprints are everywhere
I'd just slow down to stop and stare
opened my eyes and man I swear
I saw God today

 I have been thinking about this subject lately. Would i recognize God if I ran into him. I think of the story of man who the Lord came to him in a dream and told he would visit with him the next day. The man dressed in his best and cleaned his home to prepare for the Lord. Then the man waited by the door and a knock came and their stood a man dressed in rags and the older man invited him in the house and gave him something to warm with. Then the man left. Later in the day a woman came by and she was thirsty and he gave her a drink and she went on her way. The man then realized it was late in the day and he never gave up hope and then at night fall another knock and the man knew that it would be Lord and it was instead a very tired hungry man the older man invited him in and fed him and tucked him and allowed him to rest. That night the man got on his knees and said "lord, you said you would come and visit but you did not" the Lord answered "yes, three times I came and you fed me, you have me a drink, and you allowed me to rest. Yes, my child I did come. Well done my beloved servant"
 I know I want to be told "Well Done my faithful Servant"

Never Ever

   About four years ago when I wanted to become a better person and closer to my Heavenly Father. I made the decision to become active back at my church and work on becoming more Christ like in my actions. I went with the sister missionaries to teach people that wanted to learn about the gospel. I went to a home and told them my story about my drugs and how I became clean. Never really have given much thought to the effect that my story has on people but this sister told me it made all the difference. They (husband and herself) said if I could change and Heavenly Father could soften my heart then anything was possible.
17 second miracle:  I met this sister at the store house where I thought that I was to tired to go. But we kept looking at each other like we knew each other but really did not. This sister had the courage to talk to me. Her eyes is what caught my attention they shone. They were bright blue and she was truly happy!! Her spirit made my spirit lighter. She was my 17 second miracle.

thoughts

  I have couple of thoughts today. I have a visit with a friend today. I felt a little sadden her father passed away on July 5 and they were at St Vincent and she did not even call. I felt for her and can not even imagine what it felt like. She lost a friend this year also. She was sadden by it. Which made me sad and I hurt for the both of them since I consider them both great blessings in my personal life.

2nd thought: Did I mention I made Dean's list last semester. I started at University of Indianapolis and I have loved it. I start school tomorrow and i feel nervous.

3rd thought: I think of all my struggles I think the worst one is watching a child struggle. I am watching Aaron find his own place in the world. I have to sit and watch him make some really hard decisions for himself and pray that he makes the right one for himself.

 4th thought: I love my family. I wish I was able to show them more often.

Tonsils and ENT

  I have chronic cough and have been sick alot lately. The doctor and I have tried everything. I have been to pulmonarist and its not asthma. So we have tried all different inhaler and pain medication. Lately there has been alot of research on ears, nose and tonsils and chronic coughs Since November I have had three ear infections and pneumonia and have been on so much medication that its not funny. I have been medication out of my ears, it helps but I have built a immunity to it. I don't understand pills I hate how they make me feel. So Thursday I see a ENT. Will keep you undated.