Jealous???

I am jealous!! No its not a man or even what a friend has!! It not material things or its not a life style that someone else has. But I am jealous and I hide it with anger. Are you ready for this??

When i first got clean my mom said to me that she was so mad at me because she thought we were friends. I had hurt her as a mother but as a friend also. So she was just mad and when I say mad I mean mad. But over the last 5 years we have become really good friends. In reality she is the one that I like to do things with. Even though we are very different we are very much the same. So guess what now that she is so amazingly busy I miss her. I am not good at hiding it. It seems like every time I call she is busy doing something. In my head I know its really important but sometimes it feels like when you are five and your best friend tells you that she found someone else to be her best friend. So yes I feel like being five today and for quite few weeks now.