May 8. 2012 I am 45 this mother's day!! I know the only thing I have ever wanted was to be a mom. I believe even as a little girl I had the most baby dolls. I always babysat the most kids int he ward. So I always dreamed of having a house full of kids I wanted boys. Well 2 weeks ago, my youngest son told he was going to be a dad. Which means I am going to be a grandma. I can not wait!! I am probably more excited than they are. I worry about Kim and Kevin, of course, money, future, and baby wise. That is normal.
Today is one of those days that I always feel a deep saddeness for the things I have missed in the boys lives. Today is one of those days when they are talking about their high school years I know I was selfish. I missed years that I will never get back. I miss it when they are talking about things I will never get back. I sometimes I have no clue to this day of what they are talking about or some things I will never know.
I love my sons, I am so proud to be their mom, I understand God gave them to me to love, support, and mostly love!!! I am so proud of each of them, I know they are brilliant, beautiful, and awesome sons.
You maybe right! you are probably are more excited but just because you have wanted a grand baby for awhile! I am just nervous about this! But i am def excited. You shouldnt be sad you have more than made up for it. I know that i forgiven you. You are one of my best friends. You are the first person i go to see when i come into town. I would rather see a movie with you than anyone else. I love you mom. I think you are GREAT mom.
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