Lead Kindly Light

today I took care of this wonderful little lady. She is 97 years old she all bones and her skin in thin. We did a procedure on her at the heart center. She just lies there and she is sleeping all the time. Her son is in the room with her. He does not sit close to her and stays in the back corner and does not visit with her. He knows nothing about her and it made me sad to watch. Worse yet, the doctor thought it was wonderful. The procedure did not give her more quality of life.
today when i was cleaning her up she looked at me and said I am ready. I said no you are not we have to put your gown on. She is no not that!! I am ready to die!!! I have had a good life, I am ready. My children feel bad that is why they insisted on this. They did not listen to me. I am ready. I had six children I have outlived 5 of them. The son never visits and he has not for years. My husband has been gone over 20 years, and I am tired.
After listening to her it made me think of the song we sang at church.
I feel so blessed to have taken care of her. I am determined to get to know my mom better. I never want to worry if I don't know the people I love!!!

Lead Kindly Light

Lead, kindly Light, amid th’encircling gloom, lead Thou me on!
The night is dark, and I am far from home; lead Thou me on!
Keep Thou my feet; I do not ask to see
The distant scene; one step enough for me.

I was not ever thus, nor prayed that Thou shouldst lead me on;
I loved to choose and see my path; but now lead Thou me on!
I loved the garish day, and, spite of fears,
Pride ruled my will. Remember not past years!

So long Thy power hath blest me, sure it still will lead me on.
O’er moor and fen, o’er crag and torrent, till the night is gone,
And with the morn those angel faces smile, which I
Have loved long since, and lost awhile!

Meantime, along the narrow rugged path, Thyself hast trod,
Lead, Savior, lead me home in childlike faith, home to my God.
To rest forever after earthly strife
In the calm light of everlasting life.