December

 Its been a while since I have wrote. This year has been a year of many good, great, sad, frustating changes in my life. Great-
Jason graduating, and getting a teaching job at Cornell. Yes, he has stepped off his never never land but has not left the comfort of it.
Aaron-is struggling to find out what type of man he wants to be and needs to be. I believe with all my children but especially him that he needs to find religion. His soul is calling for it. But till he recognizes his life is not working the way he is going nothing is going to change.
Kevin-will be a daddy soon. He is a man struggling to and wanting as some points to be a kid again. But then again aren't we all.
Greg-what a great friend and support. I have enjoyed being friends with him. I have loved watching him be a father to our sons and looking forward to becoming a grandpa and trying to decide what name he wants little man to call him. I want him to find happiness and love......
Myself-I think I have realized that I am very blessed to be married to my friend. Someone who is willing to believe in me and to trust me. I think he is such a better man than I ever gave him credit for. I know this man loves me and that is something I never try to take advantage of. I am grateful that he allows me to stay myself without expecting change.
Dad-had a heart attack this year. Made realize how precious my parents are. How they may be gone at any moment. Made me question do they know I love them and that I am so grateful that they are the people they are. That they know I am the best I can be because it shows respect for them.
Mom-I watch her become older right before my eyes. In reality that means I am becoming older right before my eyes. Her example of a changed attitude is amazing me and her love for her ward and Dad is becoming.
Tina-I have listened and watched her struggle with things that no mother should ever have to do. I have watched her in hours of need, understanding, look for our Heavenly Father's guidance and his grace instead of turning bitter and ugly about the things in her life. She has become such a great example to me. I love her and if only I could take some of the pain and hurt from her, I would. But again isn't that what sisters are suppose to do and desire to do.
I have lost many friends before they were suppose to leave in my opinion of course. I will miss them and look forward to seeing them again. I have grown this year in my heart and in my spirit. I have grown closer to Heavenly Father and realizing his hand in all my life. I have been sad which makes me appreciate happiness, I have been mad at life but it made me appreciate joy. I have felt lonely which makes me appreciate love and friendship in my life. I am grateful for my life and to know that Heavenly Father loves me and knows me by name. I am grateful..........