love you forever

 My addiction assignment ended this Monday and its now Thursday. I have decided to not go back to fast food. I have enjoyed my extra money that I have not spend at windows. I have not had any fast food for a 5 weeks. In our final paper we are suppose to compare this to addiction. I do know that I found it often easy to ralationize that no one would know. But I just realized on my way home tonite that I have not changed my mindsetting. I thought I wonder what is at home to eat. I am excited to go back to Normal schedule next week.

 When ever the boys leave I am always so sad. I really miss my house being a loud and active. I miss being a mom. I know that in my life I made choices that I did not get to enjoy those days but looking back I know how much I miss. But I guess I have then tendency to always feel sorry for myself after they leave. I do know they are my three best blessings in my life. I know they are what kept me alive when I did not want to live. I know they were my thing and still are the thing that keeps me clean . I love them with everything i have. I would give up anything for their happiness. I thank God every day for them and I pray for them daily. When they were little I would read to them every night I Love you forever.  in the book it goes I'll love you forever I 'll like you  for always as long as I am living my baby you will be.............................