Trials

 I love the first sunday of each month. At the church  (Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints) that I am a member of we have in our family meeting a time where any member of the congregation can stand and testify to things that they know are true. So many people talk about their relationship with Christ, the Book of Mormon and other scriptures being true, how we have modern day prophet to lead and guide us. This week's subject happened to be on trials. Everyone was talking about how grateful they were for their trials they were. I am usually grateful after the fact, most often way after the fact. Not right a way. After I can look back and know for sure I have learned something from them? During them I am thinking why? not necessarily why me? I think there is huge difference. I firmly believe that my trials are mine and mine alone. I do not believe if I could give them away that another person would learn what I did from them. I know Heavenly Father knows me by name and knows what I need to learn, and knows what each of us needs to learn in order to grow. So our trials are ours and ours alone. I think of the promise that we will not be given what we can not handle. I believe that so often we think we control that. I think its only in God's hands to decide what we are capable of. I am so guilty of telling him what and when I want something and forgetting that all blessings are on his time table not mine. The same is true for what we can handle and we can not handle.

 I am grateful for so many things. I am grateful for my parents and the great example they have provided me in my life. I am grateful to know and to understand I am daughter of God, and he loves me and knows me. I am grateful for three wonderful sons and who are the best things about me. They bring me joy and love and laughter. I know that families are forever and that God gave me my family. I am grateful to know that the temple is a place where I can go and have peace and joy and to learn. I love my husband, and so very grateful that I married my friend. I look forward to growing old with him. In name of Jesus Christ amen