Past and the past that will never go away

I understand that everyone makes mistakes, and I even understand that we all have to take responsibilities for our mistakes. The big ones and the small ones. But so often I think about mine and how much I have learned going through everything  I have. I often wonder if I would be in this spot in my life. There are many times when you get tired of fighting for things. I have been blessed beyond anything i could imagine. On the same line I often wonder about what where I would be if I did not have all these obstacle in my life. I wonder if I often learn lessons right away. I know that I don't