I woke up thinking about how life changes in the matter of little time. After reading the scriptures: I love the Book of Mormon and I read it along with the Old Testament. Two semesters ago at school I took this Old Testament class and the professor loved the history behind Old Testament. Anyway he taught me to love it. This is where I often go to seek answers for myself and my family. 2 Chronicles 6:37 This Solomon time and he is known for his wisdom during this time he build the Temple so he is praying for mercy and for his people to walk in light. So the answer to my prayer came in the above verse: Solomon is telling his people it does not matter what the circumstances are but you need to recall in your mind did I turn to the Father? If you turn your heart to him with everything you have, then you will be truly walking in his light. So going back to my original thought I know why life has changed so much. I have turned to him in my own happiness, sadness, and every time in my life. I can not image going back to the old life I led. I so aware of the thought process that goes along with this.
I would just have to say my life is now better than any other time in my life. I still have huge regrets but I am learning with each passing day to forgive myself:)
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Picture Yuck
in my micro social work class I had to take a video interview. So today I am sitting and watching it. I am fat. No really fat. My stomach is bigger than my boobs. That means I am fat. So what are you going to do about it?
When I graduate do I want to be a fat social worker or what? Do I want my husband to say "gee honey you are fat" I already pay for weight watchers so guess its time I get serious. No fast food more water and make myself accountable. so how many times can one commit to losing weight? how many times can one say they are getting to fat? Well if you sick and tired of being tired and sick then its time to do something about it. Mom and Dad said I could use their exercise equipment. I can drop a couple of dollars everytime I go over there.
I commit to attending a meeting once a week
i will exercise MWR on the tread mill
No fast food for this week.
When I graduate do I want to be a fat social worker or what? Do I want my husband to say "gee honey you are fat" I already pay for weight watchers so guess its time I get serious. No fast food more water and make myself accountable. so how many times can one commit to losing weight? how many times can one say they are getting to fat? Well if you sick and tired of being tired and sick then its time to do something about it. Mom and Dad said I could use their exercise equipment. I can drop a couple of dollars everytime I go over there.
I commit to attending a meeting once a week
i will exercise MWR on the tread mill
No fast food for this week.
Monday, December 5, 2011
December
Its been a while since I have wrote. This year has been a year of many good, great, sad, frustating changes in my life. Great-
Jason graduating, and getting a teaching job at Cornell. Yes, he has stepped off his never never land but has not left the comfort of it.
Aaron-is struggling to find out what type of man he wants to be and needs to be. I believe with all my children but especially him that he needs to find religion. His soul is calling for it. But till he recognizes his life is not working the way he is going nothing is going to change.
Kevin-will be a daddy soon. He is a man struggling to and wanting as some points to be a kid again. But then again aren't we all.
Greg-what a great friend and support. I have enjoyed being friends with him. I have loved watching him be a father to our sons and looking forward to becoming a grandpa and trying to decide what name he wants little man to call him. I want him to find happiness and love......
Myself-I think I have realized that I am very blessed to be married to my friend. Someone who is willing to believe in me and to trust me. I think he is such a better man than I ever gave him credit for. I know this man loves me and that is something I never try to take advantage of. I am grateful that he allows me to stay myself without expecting change.
Dad-had a heart attack this year. Made realize how precious my parents are. How they may be gone at any moment. Made me question do they know I love them and that I am so grateful that they are the people they are. That they know I am the best I can be because it shows respect for them.
Mom-I watch her become older right before my eyes. In reality that means I am becoming older right before my eyes. Her example of a changed attitude is amazing me and her love for her ward and Dad is becoming.
Tina-I have listened and watched her struggle with things that no mother should ever have to do. I have watched her in hours of need, understanding, look for our Heavenly Father's guidance and his grace instead of turning bitter and ugly about the things in her life. She has become such a great example to me. I love her and if only I could take some of the pain and hurt from her, I would. But again isn't that what sisters are suppose to do and desire to do.
I have lost many friends before they were suppose to leave in my opinion of course. I will miss them and look forward to seeing them again. I have grown this year in my heart and in my spirit. I have grown closer to Heavenly Father and realizing his hand in all my life. I have been sad which makes me appreciate happiness, I have been mad at life but it made me appreciate joy. I have felt lonely which makes me appreciate love and friendship in my life. I am grateful for my life and to know that Heavenly Father loves me and knows me by name. I am grateful..........
Jason graduating, and getting a teaching job at Cornell. Yes, he has stepped off his never never land but has not left the comfort of it.
Aaron-is struggling to find out what type of man he wants to be and needs to be. I believe with all my children but especially him that he needs to find religion. His soul is calling for it. But till he recognizes his life is not working the way he is going nothing is going to change.
Kevin-will be a daddy soon. He is a man struggling to and wanting as some points to be a kid again. But then again aren't we all.
Greg-what a great friend and support. I have enjoyed being friends with him. I have loved watching him be a father to our sons and looking forward to becoming a grandpa and trying to decide what name he wants little man to call him. I want him to find happiness and love......
Myself-I think I have realized that I am very blessed to be married to my friend. Someone who is willing to believe in me and to trust me. I think he is such a better man than I ever gave him credit for. I know this man loves me and that is something I never try to take advantage of. I am grateful that he allows me to stay myself without expecting change.
Dad-had a heart attack this year. Made realize how precious my parents are. How they may be gone at any moment. Made me question do they know I love them and that I am so grateful that they are the people they are. That they know I am the best I can be because it shows respect for them.
Mom-I watch her become older right before my eyes. In reality that means I am becoming older right before my eyes. Her example of a changed attitude is amazing me and her love for her ward and Dad is becoming.
Tina-I have listened and watched her struggle with things that no mother should ever have to do. I have watched her in hours of need, understanding, look for our Heavenly Father's guidance and his grace instead of turning bitter and ugly about the things in her life. She has become such a great example to me. I love her and if only I could take some of the pain and hurt from her, I would. But again isn't that what sisters are suppose to do and desire to do.
I have lost many friends before they were suppose to leave in my opinion of course. I will miss them and look forward to seeing them again. I have grown this year in my heart and in my spirit. I have grown closer to Heavenly Father and realizing his hand in all my life. I have been sad which makes me appreciate happiness, I have been mad at life but it made me appreciate joy. I have felt lonely which makes me appreciate love and friendship in my life. I am grateful for my life and to know that Heavenly Father loves me and knows me by name. I am grateful..........
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Jeremy
Today I am sad. Even if I know my friend is in heaven. He was a nice person, great friend, and good boss. He was killed on a motorcycle on saturday night.
http://tributes.com/show/Jeremy-Scott-Burnette-92717191
Jeremy has four children and a wife that he absolute loved and right now at this very moment I am suppose to be getting dressed to go the viewing. I am sad.
http://hosting-24789.tributes.com/show/Jeremy-Scott-Burnette-92717191
31, of Noblesville, entered heavens gates on Saturday, November 5, 2011. Jeremy was born May 6, 1980 in Bedford, IN.
Jeremy began his career as a critical care nurse in Bloomington. In 2004 he joined the nursing staff at the St. Vincent Heart Hospital and progressed to Process Leader of the PCU and ER. In 2009 he became a consultant with St. Vincent and was Director of Cardiovascular Services for Hancock Regional Hospital and Henry County Hospital. Jeremy received his MBA from Bellevue University.
A service celebrating Jeremy's life will be at 1:00 p.m. on Friday, November 11 in Flanner and Buchanan Funeral Center - Carmel . Friends and family are invited to gather for a visitation from 4:00 to 8:00 p.m. on Thursday, November 10.
Jeremy is survived by his wife, Sandy; children, Evan S., Aidan M., Abigail Y. and Isabelle R. Burnette; parents, Russell B. and Carmen R. Staggs Burnette; brothers, Russell A. "Andy" (wife, Heather) and Justin B. (wife, Sandy) Burnette; grandparents, Kenny and Ann Staggs, Marilyn S. Burnette; father and mother-in-law, Gary M. and Teresa A. Bechtel; sisters-in-law, Sarah J. (husband, Stephen) Hatch, Regan A. Brown, Haley R. Bechtel, Stephanie L. (husband, Paul B.) Breeden; several nieces, nephews and cousins.
I am sad for his children, wife and all of his friends. He was amazing person.
http://tributes.com/show/Jeremy-Scott-Burnette-92717191
Jeremy has four children and a wife that he absolute loved and right now at this very moment I am suppose to be getting dressed to go the viewing. I am sad.
http://hosting-24789.tributes.com/show/Jeremy-Scott-Burnette-92717191
31, of Noblesville, entered heavens gates on Saturday, November 5, 2011. Jeremy was born May 6, 1980 in Bedford, IN.
Jeremy began his career as a critical care nurse in Bloomington. In 2004 he joined the nursing staff at the St. Vincent Heart Hospital and progressed to Process Leader of the PCU and ER. In 2009 he became a consultant with St. Vincent and was Director of Cardiovascular Services for Hancock Regional Hospital and Henry County Hospital. Jeremy received his MBA from Bellevue University.
A service celebrating Jeremy's life will be at 1:00 p.m. on Friday, November 11 in Flanner and Buchanan Funeral Center - Carmel . Friends and family are invited to gather for a visitation from 4:00 to 8:00 p.m. on Thursday, November 10.
Jeremy is survived by his wife, Sandy; children, Evan S., Aidan M., Abigail Y. and Isabelle R. Burnette; parents, Russell B. and Carmen R. Staggs Burnette; brothers, Russell A. "Andy" (wife, Heather) and Justin B. (wife, Sandy) Burnette; grandparents, Kenny and Ann Staggs, Marilyn S. Burnette; father and mother-in-law, Gary M. and Teresa A. Bechtel; sisters-in-law, Sarah J. (husband, Stephen) Hatch, Regan A. Brown, Haley R. Bechtel, Stephanie L. (husband, Paul B.) Breeden; several nieces, nephews and cousins.
I am sad for his children, wife and all of his friends. He was amazing person.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
This semester school schedule
Tue/Thurs 8-9 am Art Appreciate
Tues 11-2:20 Micro Social Work
Tue/Thurs 6-7:50 Research social work
Wednesday 6-8:50 Policy social work
Service Learning Lab Wednesday 5-6
Tues 11-2:20 Micro Social Work
Tue/Thurs 6-7:50 Research social work
Wednesday 6-8:50 Policy social work
Service Learning Lab Wednesday 5-6
4 months and half way through semester 1
Tonight I feel as if my whole life has changed. So many ways for the good and a few that I am worried about. Just when I feel comfortable with everything it feels as if that maybe comfort is not what i want anymore. I have done school for so long that it feels as if its a part of me and more than that it feels as if its a part of how I identify myself. So Can I identify myself as a Social worker. I am scared of the future. It feels as if there is no one to tell this too!!
4 months into the marriage. Kevin and I are very different and sometimes its a good thing and sometimes its very frustrating. I feel as if we both are facing this life together and we both see the future very very different. We have looked for so long at the same things and we have always seen everything different. So in reality nothing has changed that much. Do I want to always see white and he always sees black? I wish sometimes we would see the same colors. But one of the reasons I love him is because he sees the colors I do not or refuse to see.
4 months into the marriage. Kevin and I are very different and sometimes its a good thing and sometimes its very frustrating. I feel as if we both are facing this life together and we both see the future very very different. We have looked for so long at the same things and we have always seen everything different. So in reality nothing has changed that much. Do I want to always see white and he always sees black? I wish sometimes we would see the same colors. But one of the reasons I love him is because he sees the colors I do not or refuse to see.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Its that time of year
today I am signing up for my last semester of classes before graduation. Its a joyful/sad thing, I love school. Some days it feels as if its the one thing I am good at. I am worried that by wanting to go on and get my Master's that I am pushing my luck. Some days I wished there was more than prayer for answers, I wish God would stop what he is doing and drop signs in front of me and just tell me what I am suppose to do. I am worried that I am not doing the right senior practicum. I do not want to end up being a baby sitter with nothing to do. Have I told you lately that I miss Amani, and all the things that I got to do. I realize that i am very spoiled because of that place. I got to do things that most interns never get to do, I do not want to be a baby sitter. I should talk to Michelle about it. I think I am having seizures again. I have woke up a few times feeling more tired than when Iwent to bed even after using my breathing machine. I have also work up with my cheeks and tongue bitten up. I do not want to worry any one but if I do it again I going to have to go to the doctor.
We will see:)
next time more about Tina's with some pictures:)
We will see:)
next time more about Tina's with some pictures:)
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