Do you ever wonder?

  Today in sacrament meeting, we had a great talks. I love Christmas and everything with it. Today as we were sitting there I started letting my mind wonder. I wonder how Mary felt when the angel appeared to her and told her that she was going to be the mother of Savior. I wonder if she thought about watching her son go through the things he had. To have a child be spit on , made fun of, teased. As a mother I have thought about that many times of this, I don't know if I could do this. I don't know if I could  be so unselfish and not save my son. Even though the whole world is riding on him. I wonder if she ever thought that. I wonder if she ever prayed to have his cup and let him have quietness on this earth. I wonder as she watched her son be nailed to the cross if she asked why me? Why does this have to happen to my son? As she watched him pray for the thieves on both side of him if she thought I raised him right?  When he took his last breathe did she fall to her knees and beg for him to come back? 

  Not that Aaron is the Savior of the world but he is mine. I watch him and I wished that I could take his cup. I would love to take his hurt from him and give him back a unbroken spirit. I wish I could make it better for him and let him walk away a stronger man for this. I wish that I could take back the hurt I have caused in his life. I love Aaron and it hurts my heart and soul to watch him.