I just want to be SAD

  I have been off work since November 3, 2010 and I could have went back last week the doctor cleared me. But the employee nurse at work would not clear me. It did not matter that I had no PTO time/vacation time. So yesterday was my first day back and pay day. Which I already knew meant zero. But then I get a call at work to tell me next pay day I will have $122.31 deducted from that check for the benefits for this check. which is fine and I know you have to pay. Its the paycheck before Christmas!! What did I do I cried at work in front of everyone!! Its not the lack of money its the no money situation! Its right before Christmas. I am very used to living from paycheck to paycheck!!
  I even know that there is a end to this. I will have a degree in BA in Social Work in year and half. So I know there is a chance to make more money. But right now I just want to be sad!! I understand and know people that have so much more to deal with in life than I do. I have friends that struggle with sickness, death, and etc. I have nurse friend who's baby has cancer. I have sister with cancer. I have a nephew who is has disabilities but such a great blessing! I have friends who has lost their husbands/wives, children who go hungry everyday except school lunches, I have friends with no jobs!! I know I could have it worse and I have had it worse but I want to be sad for a short time!!