Hiding

 Jason went home today to New York. Yes I said home, that is where he considers home. Kevin went home to Fort Wayne the same for him. I doubt he will ever be back to indy area.
 Yesterday Kevin (my friend) told me he did not want to think about moving out of state.


I have learned a lot about who I am over the last 10 years by the path I have taken in life. I learned that the drugs from my past was to hide from my past.
  When I was about 16 I started having seizures, grand-mals, Then I learned and took care of the bad memories from my childhood, I stopped having seizures. I have not had a seizures in over 6 years and I haven't been on medication for 5.5 years.  Before sixteen I woke up many times with my tongue bitten up and sore muscles so my mom and I often wonder how many I had before my parents actually witness one.
With quite bit of counseling I learned what the underlying problem was and I found the desire to lead a different life is the result of being a whole person. But today at work I thought about my weight I wonder what it is I am hiding from by being overweight. I wonder for a lot of different reasons......I wonder if extra weight lately is because I have been down lately. Could it be?
What am I afraid of? What am I hiding from in my weight? What am I willing to do to lose the weight?
As far as knowing how to lose the weight I know how? So am I going to keep my membership at the Y or what is the deal?

i know I never learn anything with 2x4 being hit up side my head, so I am sure this will be one of them. :)