life lessons

What lessons have you learned in your life that have blessed your life?
            I read this question after I read my sister blog.

My earliest memories of our family is simple ones. I learned charity, that there is always someone that has less then we do. I remember going to the hospital with Cindy and we always took things to share with the other children. I do not remember anything specific. I do remember having family home evening at the hospital, and the family included anyone who wanted to be included. The nurses, children, and the other families.
   The second one I remember is that prayer can and does work at all things and all places.I remember my grandparents praying and I can not think of time when we did not pray as a family.  Even in homes of family members where prayer is not said if my father was there then he was asked to give prayer. Our family respects him enough and has faith in him that prayers were important.
   I know that the biggest lesson I have learned is that everyone deserves a second chance in life. I know that the second chances takes alot of hard work. Alot of prayer and putting the Atonement to play in your life. Realizing that God knows us by name and his son has paid the price for our sins, no matter they are. I know God knows me and is concerned for me. He hears and answers my prayers. I know he loves me:)
   I remember when Cindy died and I felt how can we be grateful but that night we said a gratitude prayer for her. Then all through my life we have been taught to be grateful for what we have. I know that I have made choices were my life has been very different and I had nothing including my family.
  The most important lesson I have learned. Is that I never want to be without my family. I love them and know that a blink decision can make them disappear. I know I have made that decision and I lived in the dark and with out them. I will never let a day or two go by without telling them what they mean to me and how much I love them. do they know I love them ?

Tired

  Don't you hate it when you realize something about yourself and its not that nice. I am not a nice person if I am tired!!!! I am not kind to myself or to people around me. I am sorry I will work on it.

Heaven

About a year ago I started a experiment to see if a promise that was made in church was true. The speaker was a leader in church and he said Heavenly Father knows what and when we need things and its job to seek it. So that we are able to ask for the appropriate things that we need. Then he went on to tell about he decided to be put it to work he decided for 1 month when reading his scriptures he would just open them and read. Well I decided to put it to the test. I still read 15 minutes in the BOM every morning because I know the blessing of doing this is peace. Then the other 15 minutes for the last year I just let the scriptures fall where they like.

back to today:   John 14
So often I know up until now only thing I really knew about this chapter is that we have mansions in heaven. But this morning it recconfirm the fact that my Heavenly Father loves me. That he knows I am here and willing to learn of him. So I am going to share just a few of the things that touched my heart as I read:

1Let not your heart be ^atroubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me.
If my heart is troubled (hurting) then I need to focus more on God and his son.


4And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know.
This is where Jesus is talking to the apostles and telling them you know the way to heaven you need to do the things you have been taught!

And whatsoever ye shall ^aask in my ^bname, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.

 14If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it.

 15¶If ye ^alove me, ^bkeep my ^ccommandments.

don't you  love the promise that if we ask in his name (Jesus Christ) that his father (God) will do for me. This is his commitment from the God if we keep his commandments and his promise is that he will answer our prayers.

Sometimes I think I know better for me than my Heavenly Father knows for me. I want my prayers answered the way I think they should be, and so often I need reminded that his way is always better. 

Lead Kindly Light

today I took care of this wonderful little lady. She is 97 years old she all bones and her skin in thin. We did a procedure on her at the heart center. She just lies there and she is sleeping all the time. Her son is in the room with her. He does not sit close to her and stays in the back corner and does not visit with her. He knows nothing about her and it made me sad to watch. Worse yet, the doctor thought it was wonderful. The procedure did not give her more quality of life.
today when i was cleaning her up she looked at me and said I am ready. I said no you are not we have to put your gown on. She is no not that!! I am ready to die!!! I have had a good life, I am ready. My children feel bad that is why they insisted on this. They did not listen to me. I am ready. I had six children I have outlived 5 of them. The son never visits and he has not for years. My husband has been gone over 20 years, and I am tired.
After listening to her it made me think of the song we sang at church.
I feel so blessed to have taken care of her. I am determined to get to know my mom better. I never want to worry if I don't know the people I love!!!

Lead Kindly Light

Lead, kindly Light, amid th’encircling gloom, lead Thou me on!
The night is dark, and I am far from home; lead Thou me on!
Keep Thou my feet; I do not ask to see
The distant scene; one step enough for me.

I was not ever thus, nor prayed that Thou shouldst lead me on;
I loved to choose and see my path; but now lead Thou me on!
I loved the garish day, and, spite of fears,
Pride ruled my will. Remember not past years!

So long Thy power hath blest me, sure it still will lead me on.
O’er moor and fen, o’er crag and torrent, till the night is gone,
And with the morn those angel faces smile, which I
Have loved long since, and lost awhile!

Meantime, along the narrow rugged path, Thyself hast trod,
Lead, Savior, lead me home in childlike faith, home to my God.
To rest forever after earthly strife
In the calm light of everlasting life.

Paths and Roads

Today at work I was talking to one of my patients and we were talking about the paths we have taken in our lives. I have thought about our conversation all day. He was telling me that he has been married a couple of times and he always thought it was the one. Because of his choices he has made the lady not love him anymore. but this time is the one.
My thoughts: what if I let my past dictate the future for my marriage? What if I haven't really changed my way of thinking and I let old thoughts get in the way? I know for sure that it would hurt Kevin and our marriage. I take marriage very serious and my commitment to it even more serious. I wonder if people understand how much it means to me to know this man loves me and I love him. I have faith in the fact that love can conquer anything. Do I believe in fairy tales? I do believe in the fact that one glass slipper can change your life. I know that if you let the slipper it can change your life. I consider the glass slipper in my life my testimony of the Savior, the fact that I know he lives and loves me. I am grateful for this firm knowledge and it all started with faith that I could have a glass slipper in my life.