LOVE

  I came home from Florida today! I really missed the people in my life that was at home. I missed home. I love the relationship I have with my parents. I love the gospel, and I love the fact that I have wonderful people in my life. I realized that in 3 days I will be leaving for New York.

So this scripture has been on my mind alot: 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8 Charity is ^aCharity ^bsuffereth long, and is ^ckind; charity ^denvieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,

 5Doth not behave itself ^aunseemly, seeketh not her ^bown, is not easily ^cprovoked, thinketh no evil;

 6Rejoiceth not in ^ainiquity, but rejoiceth in the ^btruth;

 7Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

As we have been told charity is pure love. 

So if you love someone then you have to be willing to be long suffering, kind, envieth not, not puffed up, thinketh no evil of the person, rejoice in truth. How do you know when you truly love someone is a comfort level or is a the fact that you don't want to see your future without that person.

So is love the everydayness of life and the fact that you believe that you can do anything with that person in your corner. 

my health

    I have hurt really bad the last couple of weeks and but the last week and half has been horrible on my lungs. I can hardly breathe and my voice is horrible. My throat does not hurt. My head lungs hurt. Today at work I could taste every product we use and the food tasted horrible.
Aaron started a new job and he is so excited about it. Which is such a blessing and I am so happy for him. Its working in a ice cream shop. It sounds like the owners really value his opinion and his viewsl
 I am leaving for Florida tomorrow. I am excited!!!

Today

Today I received these from Kevin, my friend for my birthday!! He did not only bring them to work but he delivered them to work. I felt very special and thought about!! It has been many years since someone send me roses!!

Favorite things

 Ever thought about what your favorite things are in life: I know sometimes I forget  Some of my favorite things are most things pink, I love to hear people laugh, people holding hands after along time being married, watching rain fall, crushed ice, people who can does not care what others are thinking, people who just want to say hi, hot peanut butter cookies, lucky charm cereal, old friends, rootbeer floats, dairy queen banana splits, thoughts of my sons, thought of being a grandmother, the color yellow, butterflies, times in life that you can laugh so hard your side hurts, the crazy dog of mine, old friends, the times in life when you know God is there, the time when you cry and you are able to cry hard, just lying in bed and being quiet,reading a book from beginning to end and never getting out of bed, making good grades, hanging out with the man you are dating and doing nothing all day, seeing someone that you wish you had the nerve to dress that way, being excited for simple things, knowing and seeing God in the daily parts of life, ice cream, windy days where you can feel the breeze!!

Dating is horrible and hard!!

  I have been dating a guy, Kevin, for a while now. I really like him and care about him. I would say it is becoming serious. In most of my decisions I have made in my life is I just do on a whime and not think about it. So I need to consider some of the consequences of continuing to date him.

Mother's Day

  May 8. 2012  I am 45 this mother's day!! I know the only thing I have ever wanted was to be a mom. I believe even as a little girl I had the most baby dolls. I always babysat the most kids int he ward. So I always dreamed of  having a house full of kids I wanted boys. Well 2 weeks ago, my youngest son told he was going to be a dad. Which means I am going to be a grandma. I can not wait!! I am probably more excited than they are. I  worry about Kim and Kevin, of course, money, future, and baby wise. That is normal.
Today is one of those days that I always feel a deep saddeness for the things I have missed in the boys lives. Today is one of those days when they are talking about their high school years I know I was selfish. I missed years that I will never get back. I miss it when they are talking about things I will never get back. I sometimes I have no clue to this day of what they are talking about or some things I will never know.
I love my sons, I am so proud to be their mom, I understand God gave them to me to love, support, and mostly love!!! I am so proud of each of them, I know they are brilliant, beautiful, and awesome sons.