seeing

  Have you ever thought about how you look at other people? I have and I have made a choice to try and see people like Heavenly Father would see them. Its amazing when you start looking to see a person's soul. I am amazed at how I see people, the person the young man that I have always avoided his eyes because he stays on the corner. I decided to stop and chat with him. His name is Chris, and he is 22. He ran from home a few years ago, and when I asked him about it. He said that even on the coldest nights it was better than at home. My heart hurt for him, and I hurt that he felt the streets were better than at home with his mom. Now I stop and check on him every now and then.

Then another time there is a lady in my church, I have had to really pray about to see her like Heavenly Father would. But I can talk with her and be grateful that i know her. I am grateful for that.

Learning

I have learned more in my calling than my kids do. Today is Sunday and I know that God lives and he knows me by name. I am grateful for my blessings in my life. I am grateful for my husband, who loves me no matter what. I am blessed to have my sons, and I know we chose each other in the pre-existence. I love the scriptures and know that they can apply and do apply to my life. I know when I am praying and doing what the prophet has asked me to do my life is better. I am grateful for the gospel.
In the name of Jesus Christ, amen

Ever notice??

Ever notice when you lacking in something its easier to pointed it out in others? Right now I think my husband thinks I regret marrying him. Which is not the case, I love that man and he makes me happy. I love that the fact that we are so different in how we handle life. I need him and he needs me to balance each other.

I have found that its easier to point how big people are when I feel like a two ton elephant. I have gained weight since coming back from KY. Where I was working so hard on losing weight. I have really missed KY and what it stood for. All though I realize we moved back for a reason. I miss "us" time we had there. I feel as if everything is fat on me. I feel like my fingers look like the pretzel we sell at the store and it is so frustatting. What am I doing about it?

I have found lately I am really good at looking at people's faults. I think its because I see so many of my faults lately.

I have found that I am easy to point how lazy people are because I am doing what I really want to do. I am working in restaurant that causes me to do things from my past because of the people there.

I have found lately that most of the time I just want to sleep. For me that is great sign of depression. why am i depressed? why do I find fault? Why am I lonely? Why am I sad? Why am I feeling so fat?


DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!!

March

  In February I was given the calling of Sunday School teacher for 12-13 year old. I want to share about my class. I have Joey Pitcher and his dad is in the stake presidency. Joey carries a brief case and he is very official. Joey's best friend is Jeremy Read. Jeremy is counselor in the bishopric. Jeremy is the babysitter of the ward, and he is the oldest of 5 siblings. Him and Joey are good friends. Then I have the Clark brothers. Nick Clark is wonderful, and he wants to feel the spirit. Aaron is fighting to be in "normal" world. He is getting where he will participate in class a small amount each week in class. Aaron is Nick's brother. Aaron is determined and knows what he wants and when he wants to participate. Bryen is Nick's and Aaron's brothers. Bryen was our first class president and he did a great job and really liked being given an assignment. Bryen has some health problems. These three boys are amazing and I love this class. So now for my girls. Madi Zingler, is beautiful and she is my quiet one, she wants to have the spirit in class. She can give a prayer that is out of this world.  Clara is great, She knows the scriptures and has been a huge help in my class. I am not that good at knowledge of the scriptures but I am learning. Then I have Anya, she is blonde and beautiful. Her mother is from Russia and she has lived in Russia. This past Sunday she taught us how to say Jesus Christ and it was amazing. She also said the prayer in russian and it was beautiful. I know I pray for this class and I have learned so much from them and look forward to learning more from them.