my desire to be more like Peter

I believe Peter to be the most humble but the most human. Through out history he see that sometimes his old self gets in the way of learning what Christ and God wants for him. His great desire to do what is needed and to learn the ways of Christ is always first and most desired but he sometimes lose sight of heaven wants to focus on the world more. Today's lesson on Peter. So I already know he is one of the orginal apostle and his birth name is Simon. He has a brother who also is an apostle named Andrew. Which in my opinion says alot about his parents who must have been spiritual people. He had a job, which we know all the apostles had different jobs or careers. He was a fisherman with Andrew. It was Andrew who was the younger brother who lead them to Christ. In John 1:42 its states that Simon is the son of Joha, and this is where Christ changes his name to Cephan. Which in Aramaci which means Rock which then to Greek mean Petro then to english means Peter.
Wife? I wonder I found in Matthew 8:14 it talks about Jesus was invited to Peter's home and he (Christ) saw that Petet's wife's mother laid, and sick with fever. And Christ touched her hand and she was healed. Then others in the area went forth and brought their sick and he healed them.
So there is my lessons on Peter for the day. I found that teaching I have been taught my whole life is what the apostles lived even then. Stay close to your family, marriage is important, follow the Savior and the teachings of my parents. So on to tomorrow.

For my surgery, I have pain and I went to the doctor yesterday. 5.2 pounds from left and 4 pounds from right side. over thousand stitches including inside and out. He also reminded me that its ok to be tired and its ok to take pain meds. and its just been a week. But everything looks good.

Peter

I desire to be more like friends or family I have. I want to know the scriptures and love the scriptures. In Sunday School, Brother Merrill (which just happens to be one my favorite people in the world) can answer any question with "In the scriptures it says.............." or this prophet said!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, Then there in the examples I have had in my life my whole life. One is my dad reading scriptures and another in my Grandpa Scott telling how he learned to read by using the scriptures. He also told us that no matter how many times he read them he learned something new. So I find Peter to be interesting, out of all the disciples his mission was huge. He was chosen to keep the gospel on earth after Jesus was gone.
Peter was a fisherman. Peter's brother is Andrew. It was Andrew who found Christ first but it was Peter who trusted his brother enough to follow him. John 1:44 it states that Bethsaida was the home of Peter and Andrew. So where is Bethsaida

Hard things

I know that we are told if we did not experience hard things then we would not grow. I have always been extremely protective of my sister and how she is and her well being. I hate the fact that her family is experiencing some really hard things right now. I wished I had the answers to help her and better yet I wish I knew how to help her. I hate this. I know that if faith and love can get them through this then they have enough of that. I love Tina and all the things in my life she has taught me. I am grateful she is my sister and more blessed because we are such good friends.

sisters

 I think it is amazing how by being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints that its a sisterhood. In this sisterhood we have great blessings of friendship, stewardship, and charity. We also can find if we are seeking friendship, love, and acceptance. Its one the easiest friendships to take for granted but its also one of the easiest ones to receive some of the deepest and riches blessings from. Its a pay it forward deal.
 If I was not a member of this organization I would have missed out on some of my greatest friendships.

Mostest Bestest Day EVER

Today has been probably one mostest bestest days ever. LOL We found out today it is a boy!! My first grandchild will be a little boy. I am so excited. Then to top that off Jason got his dream job of teaching at Cornell and he is flooding on cloud 10. So two out of three sons has had superior days.
I love my family!!! I am so proud of all three sons. My husband has been wonderful to me and I have not had to want for anything with this surgery.

It hurts

Today I have felt worse than I did yesterday. I am bruised on the sides pretty good I will be posting some before and after pictures soon. It feels weird to wear a sports bra. I can not wait to take a shower tomorrow. Kevin has been wonderful, even when I have been really short with him. He has not left me alone very long at all. Today when he went to get the other prescriptions full I was here by myself for about a hour. I have slept the day away. I need to walk more tomorrow. Will have kevin take pictures tomorrow.

smaller

 I had a breast reduction done on august 16. I was really scared for some reason. With dad having the heart attack, he was having cardiac rehab appointment so Tami was going to come with me. But then suddenly they decided that Dad needed to see the doctor before starting rehab.So that freed mom up to go with me. I was very glad and very very happy she could be there. I really wanted her and only her to be there with me. I knew she would take good care of me. But then I could not tell her that because Dad is the love of her life. We can not imagine life without him, so I know he is her first concern. Dr. Bergmann was very kind and the surgery took about 3 and half hours. So needless to say when I woke up there was lots of pain. It was more than discomforted. But I am grateful that the nurses were so kind. Mom stayed until I fell asleep until about 10. Kevin came up after surgery and I think seeing my lying in the bed there scared him. He does not tell me very often he loves me but shows me often. But I bet he kissed me about 3 times and told me he loved me a couple of times before he left. I feel so blessed that he is in my life. But I really do hurt. I am very tired to today. They took more off the left side and it hurts the most. The nipple area really hurts and when I lift my arms up. I have stitches in the back area also. But good night!!

Good enough?

  I have the deep pleasure and great blessing of being friends with a young man in our church. Whom I love and think he is wonderful. Sometimes i wished he realized his potential but he will with time. Friday night he and his mom came over to talk about consequences of decisions and how they can and will effect your life. We had a great conversation about this very subject.
We end the evening and I am grateful for the things this family has taught me. we decide we will have breakfast on saturday morning (mom and I)!1
At 9 am I am headed to Cracker Barrel and I turn the wrong way and so I turn around and I find myself at a red light. This light felt like it had been 20 minutes sitting there, so I decide it must be a red light that is only turned on during the wkdays. So I turn in front of police man.So of course he did his job. He pulled me over.
Remember the word of the day is consequences. Well the following day is the meaning of the word. My husband is a amazing. I try to tell him about my life, but he still wanted to marry me. I love him and thank him for being kind on saturday. Thank you!

Guilty or Not Guilty?

so often i have thought and thought about all the reasons that I wish people would just stop. I am mean I am so guilty of this also. When someone ask you how you are, do you stop and really tell them what you are feeling. When you are talking to family, do you stop and listen to the person or do you just say what ever comes to your mind? I am guilty of saying in the hallways "how are you?" but I never stop and to listen to how they really are. I am guilty of asking a question but not stopping long enough to process it. I am guilty of this are you?

Dad

  My dad is my hero and this giant of a man. He is about 5'6 but I know no one who stands taller than he does. He is kind and he loves my mom. I think life would be so hard without him and I do not want to live without him. Yes, I do know that someday I will but I do not want to. 

On Monday as I am leaving work at 710 I get a message from Michelle Dunchee on my cell. I remember thinking that is weird its family home evening night. I wonder why she is calling me. As I am walking over to the phone at the hospital, it popped in my head I "what is wrong with dad" and "did he get shot". I have no clue why that popped in my head. Maybe it was the spirit reminding it could be worse. But any way I get Michelle on the phone and her first words "Don't panic, they are taking your dad to the hospital" I said what is wrong. what hospital" They said the heart center. The ambulence changed his mind and said he is middle of a massive heart attack so they are going to Methodist. So now its 710 and I do not have a car, its at Target with Kevin and now I am standing in the hall way. I am talking with Angie Booker and Sharon Kilgore. I am waiting for Emily from church to give report. Angie said lets go. She takes me to my car. Now I get to Methodist at 810. He is headed upstairs to the cath lab. Now I am really scared. They usually dont do that after hours. For the first time in my life saw a side of my mom I had never seen.
She was speechless. She did not even know what to ask the doctors. I think she was so scared that she was losing dad. Its the first time that she actually let me help in whole good way. She asked me to make phone calls. The waiting room was full of people. Eric and Camille Scott, Kevin Matis, Nathan and Jessica Brooks, Michelle Dunchee, Wendy Arnold, and about 2 minutes after I arrived Pres. Sinclair walked in. Nathan could not even talk about it. I can not even tell you the feeling in the room, it was group of people who truly loved this man. We know we love him but to look around this room where so many people love him and care about him was a experience I am eternally grateful I had.  Then not one person left even after they took him to Cath lab. I had to call Uncle Leslie all he said was ok, and then the next day we saw him walk in. Then Uncle Richard after telling him he took a deep breathe and told me to keep him informed but you could hear the tear in his voice. It made me start to cry.
Then the two worse phone calls I had to make: Jason he loves his pa. Then I had to convince him not to go rent a car and drive here. I made a promise at any point if I thought he needed to come home I would tell him that. He cried and cried. Then made me promise that he would not die. I caught the the sob in my voice. But knew I could not cry on the phone or I would not be able to convince him.
Then Tina: she has so much on her plate. She sobbed and sobbed. She asked me three times if would be ok. At that time I did not know. It was hard to said yes. I will never forget her deep uncontrollable sob. It felt like to me that she was literally crying out to Heavenly Father.Knowing Tina and her trust in Heavenly Father she was.  But I could not be weak for her.As long as I live I will never forget her sobs.
Now mom, I saw this peace come over mom as dad was taken to the Cath Lab. This undying love for this person that they had spend 47 years together. I can not imagine our lives with out Dad. I can not imagine my mom's soul without dad. Then I kept facebook updated and the prayers and concerns that was wrote each day for day is amazing and at some points overwhelming. The people whose lives are touched because of him and mom.
Dad is what holds our family together. He is strong when we are weak. He has the faith when we have lost our way. He has taught us to have to faith and anything is possible.
Mom and Dad has taught me what being a trooper is all about. Being strong when the winds of the world hits us and we have a choice here when that happens. They have always stood strong and fought the power of the wind. They have never been knocked down by the world. I love my parents.
One of my favorite things at my work is the cute old couples who worry and fuss over eachother. Where one wont leave the other and they have been married for a long time. I realized watching them that they would be one of those couples I would love.