Monday, February 25, 2013

hand

In my life recently I have worked hard to understand in all things that God has a great hand in my life. I do understand this. In December, Kevin told me he was moving back to Indpls he could not do Lexington anymore. I knew he was miserable there, and he would travel back and forth to come and see me. But I prayed and prayed and phone call after phone call started happening for interviews back in Indianapolis, so I thought that was the answer to my prayers. I thought that I would get a job and I got all the way through the interviews and still no job. I went to 5 interviews with Midtown and results no job. So then I started to doubt that I heard what I wanted about moving back since I believe that marriage can not take place at a distance. Then I started to have my record sealed and the attorney told me 4-6 weeks, so I asked him by the first of the year that i could not explain the mistakes of my past. He said yes, here is end of February and I am still waiting. I really thought this was the answer to a long hard road of always explaining but I am sure there is a lesson in here to learn. I am sure of it, but through it all I still know God is there. Then I since I had started in KY that being accepted to IUPUI would be not difficult, here it is end of March and I still waiting. So I once again I am wondering what Heavenly Father is doing with my life. But again through it all I know his hand is there.  I know that God knows me and knows me by name. He loves me and does not want to see me hurt. I know that in life there is joy, if we allow joy to be there. There are many things I am joyful about. I have had my life very different. I will always chose today and not the other way. I love my husband and I love my life and my sons and their wonderful people they have in their lives.
Today is Aaron's girlfriends birthday. She has blessed Aaron's life and our lives.I am so grateful for her and her children. Whom I consider my grandchildren. I love them and pray for them and proud of their accomplishments.